Monday, October 10, 2011

Little annoyances
We are both getting on each other's nerves.  Both getting bothered by the little things that we both do.  I was asked to write down what I wanted from the grocery store today.  She got a little annoyed when I asked about getting some food that I could eat at work & that I wanted a few cans of mushrooms.  She then clarified that she wanted to know what I wanted for evening meals at home.  When I got home from work, found that she really didn't buy anything I had wrote down!  She asked what I wanted from the store but wasn't willing to get any of them?  I think she got 2 items I had listed; grape juice & chicken breasts.  I'm willing to bet, if I use a couple of the chicken breasts for what I want to make; she'll get mad at me.

She said that she's been getting annoyed that I tend to make smart-ass comments or are hard pressed to prove myself.  She also looks like she's been annoyed when I don't do what she wants, when she wants.  On Saturday, I was going to start raking, she told me I should load the wood onto the trailer.  She looked annoyed when I didn't stop the raking & go load the wood; then she started loading the wood.

I sometimes wonder what I got myself into.  It's starting to feel like another great big mess.  What's life about if it isn't: one mess after another?  She does what she wants to do (and it usually feels like) without consideration for others.  She will only go out of her way for herself.  I really don't think she's likely to go out of her way for me; like I have for her.

Only time will tell how we deal with the little annoyances.

Sunday, October 09, 2011

A poem to SOE (someone else)
Broken messages on a broken board.
I see the post now removed.
To be honest,
I think we both felt something more but
we keep silent in the night.
We lie to each other to keep the silence.
Because of the post now removed,
I don't believe the broken messages.