I had decided to go lay down in the basement and fell asleep. Beth woke me up and was angry about me being down in the basement. We had a nice long talk about this situation that I have created for myself. I've been a bit self-centered and that I'm not taking everything into consideration. WHat else is new, right? I would like to talk more about it but I think it will have to wait till tomorrow. It is a bit late now and I need to get up for work in about 3-4 hours.

Well, wife made dinner. It was a chicken & pasta dish. It tasted very good and tasted like more. I'm still a little hungry but I'll raid the fridge after a while. I've been sitting here thinking about what I am feeling with all that is playing out around me. I'm feeling jealous and unloved. Wife has been spending all her time with the rommie. Today, wife said they left about 2. They stopped at Perkins around 3:30-4:00ish. They had stopped at the grocery store, Sams club, and I think they stopped at blockbuster. Stopped for gas on the way home. They made it back at 7.

I want to go do something, anything at all, but I don't have anyone to go do anything with. APAC man hasn't been to visit in over a month or 2 and I can't see him because he's working the late shift of like 2pm to 11pm; or something like that. Sitting at my computer, bored out of my mind, and no where to go. I feel trapped. The rommie plays games in the living room, wife watches; or they watch a movie. I have only been asked to do one thing with them, that was to go get chinese with them last Wed. If they start a movie, they could ask if I've like to watch but nope, doesn't happin. After thinking about it, if it did happen, would I want to join them? I just want to escape this madness.

Well, I came home from work to find an empty house. I was all by my self until 7. I was trying to debate if I wanted to be here when they got home or to be off in never-never land. I didn't manage to escape. When they did get home, wife called 'Hi' as they entered and I yelled 'hi' back. Next thing I here is a whisper about she thinks I'm mad. It's about the only thing she seems to care about is if I'm in a mellow mood or if I'm in a mad mood. And she always assumes that I'm mad when a lot of the times I'm not, well not till recent that is. Then the next thing I'm told about is that Charter came to fix the On Demand for the rommie. Beth says that I had it hooked up wrong. Once again, my fault. Being hooked up backwards couldn't have been the whole reason because the splitter was replaced with a new one. Then she asks if I've eaten dinner yer. A little bit of a growl to her voice. I told her no and she headed off into the other room. I'm really starting to hate being around here!

I woke up around 1:30pm today. Started to get my computer hooked up again and to try to start working on it. Beth said that I really need to work on Donna's computer first. So I quick assessed her computer of having a bad power supply (which reminds me, I need to get that ordered). Then I start on my computer. Reformatted the HD, installed the OS and patches. I am still having the random mouse/keyboard lockups. I might have to get myself a new motherboard!!! :-( At around 2:30 I went out and finished mowing the backyard. Came in & continued the work on my computer. I got a lot of napping in today also. I would start the massive patchs downloading, go take a nap, come back to get the next batch going, etc. I had a bowl of spagetti-Os at around 5pm because I had yet to eat anything and I was feeling starved. Beth quized me about that she was going to make us dinner. I said Yes. I knew she was, but I was hungry and didn't want to wait. When she would make it, I would probably be ready to eat some more. Well, sometime around 6-7ish I had finished with all the OS patches. But the lockups where still there. Feeling frustrated I layed down and took another nap till about 9. Beth had yet to start with dinner. I'm hungry so I head to the kitchen and decided to have some toast; small enough to stop some of my hunger but still leave room if she ever decides to start dinner. She was giving me a quizical look when I was waiting for the toast but I didn't say anything. Well, now it's almost 11 and no dinner. Am I to blame for it? Probably. Last Thursday, the toilet backed up on Beth and she started to say about that i had replaced the seal underneth the toilet and it sounded like she was blaming it on that. And so.... it definitly became my crappy weekend from hell!!!

I'm going to be having to use the laptop because of my main computer. I'm not feeling tired because of my napping. I have been bored out of my mind today. I felt that I wanted to go outside to do something to enjoy it but nothing sounded fun and I didn't really know of anyone who wanted to go out and do something. The roomie played video games all afternoon and evening on the PS2 and my wife watched the whole time. Thats still going on in the living room. While I kept myself confined to the computer room and the bedroom. Well, I suppose I might as well try to get some sleep. Sleep is so nice, because it is the only time that I don't have to think! G'Night all.

Well, this turned out to feel like a weekend from hell! I had to deliver pizza on Friday night. Afterwards, I packed up the computer and headed out to the LAN Party. I was lucky I took Tards # with me because the front door was locked. It was about 11:30pm. Called him up & he came down to let me in. I next had to lug my stuff up to the 3rd floor of this warehouse via stairs. I had my computer case, monitor, duffle bag of cds/cables/keyboard/mouse/etc, sleeping bag & pillow. I got to set up next to my co-worker from Pizza Hut. All set up and I turn on the computer to find out that it decided to lo longer work! Windows would try to fire up & just freeze. Safe mode would simply reboot the computer. So, I tried to reinstall windows, no luck. Took another hd and installed windows. Next problem that I can't get rid of is that it randomly locks up the mouse & keyboard, everything else works just fine. I switched the mouse out, no change, swapped keyboards, no change!!! So now I have a computer that I can use for a random time period before it locks out the mouse & keyboard and I have to restart the computer. I really sucks!!!

Well, my co-worker didn't stay long on Friday night and said I could use his computer. He left around 1am, I think. Another co-worker came over to visit and I let him play for a while; while I putzed around with my computer. He left, I played for a tiny bit and headed to bed around 4am. I woke up around 7 and laid there till about 8-8:30am. Got up and poked and prodded my computer some more. Around 9:30, I left and hit the McDonalds for breakfast and hit Shopko for more minutes on my TracFone. Got back around 10:30-11ish. Started playing BF2 on the friends computer and played until around 8:50pm. They did provide brats around 2pm. At 8:50, The coworker that visited last night had gotten sick at work and needed to find someone to work the rest of his close shift. I said that I would. I headed out, changed, went to work. I got done with work at around 12:45am. I headed home, changed, and headed back around 1:15. I arrived and saw that about half the people had gone to bed, a small group was watching a movie on the big screen. So, I sat & watched the rest of the movie. I decided that there really wasn't many playing anyhing, most of them where watching movies on thier computers, so I packed up & headed home. I got home around 2. Started to unpack and realize that the house was empty. As I was finishing unloading the car, they showed up from an "ice cream run." The other bad thing was that they where going to draw for prizes at around 7 according to the schedule of events. I was told that they did that after I had left & that I needed to be there to claim the prize if my tickets where drawn. Everyone was given one ticket with admission, and I bought 3 more tickets for $10. That sucked!!! Well, I got unloaded and after staring at the computer stuff for a bit, I decided to simply head to bed because I wasn't in a good mood and did not want to start working on my computer.

There is sonething that I would like to mention now that I was wanting to mention in my last post but forgot to mention. I have to keep myself trying to remeber that he is her friend and not mine. It was her friend to stay with us. Not for me. I feel that is something that is important to consider and mention. I would get in trouble if I where to forget it. Which would make some of what I am complaining about; more of something I really shouldn't be complaining about.

Well, I'm heading out to that BF2 lan party. If anyone who reads this page wants to contact me, call the cell and I might answer. I would put the percetage of that actually happening to be about 0.001% chance. If you don't know the cell #, call the house and get the cell numebr. :-p

I'm sure I'll let my 0 readers know how it went.

Well, I'm feeling in the mood to complain. It's being similar to Monday. Can't sleep well. I had mentioned that we've had a new roomate. Well, I've been feeling like the third wheel around here now. I feel like I don't belong here. And I feel that I am being treated differtly by both of them then they treat each other. That is somewhat understandable. What is keeping me up is that they are being loud in the other room. Whenever the new guy is sleeping and I manage to get to volume level of normal, I'm reminded to keep my voice down so he can sleep. Do they ever consider keeping their voice down while I'm trying to sleep? Nope. They where busy being loud with laughing & talking on Monday while watching American Dad. I think he's playing some video game right now. They where talking about maybe watching some movie in english or french so they could be watching a movie instead. Another thing that feels off is that they are sitting down to watch a movie, I don't get asked to watch with them. If I actually start to watch a movie with them, I get to start where ever they are in the movie. If Beth walks in, the movie is restarted.

Yesterday was my night of WoW gaming. I came home from school, was asked about going out for dinner. The plan was to go to a chinese buffet. It's around 4. I said sure. They where waiting for his clothing to dry in the dryer so I went out to mow the lawn. I finished about 4:30-4:45. I was told that he's cloths where still drying and it would be just a little more. They where ready to go at 6:50!!! My WoW gaming is at 7, so I told Beth that how about the 2 of them go and bring me back some food. She did not like being told that. I gave in and when to the buffet. We got back around 8. I then got onto WoW, only to find out that 2 of our players where gone. But the 2 that did showed up when out playing and didn't want to go out with me. I'm really thinking of quitting WoW. I signed up so that I could play a game with Chris, but he's hardly been giving me the time of day. No one in our guild wants to help out and because of that WoW has not been much fun or interest to me.

Well, I don't see much of anyone any more. I think the last time we saw Programming Man was around Chrismas time. The last I've seen of Calc Man was shortly after the funeral for his father. Before that was a few years, I think. Haven't seen APAC Man in almost a month now. I just sometimes start to feel like I want out of my life. To make it all go away, but I know it's not that simple.

Well, I'm done with speech class. I took the final and gave my last speech tonight. Yay. Thought I would write about the fact that I got into a fight tonight and lost. I have a fair sized gash on my left side gum area. I also got a small gash in my lower lip on the inside and split my lip apart on the outside. My arch nemesis was.....a sign. Ya heard me right, a sign. I had parked in the county parking across from the Kolmen building. I have the very corner stall next to the exit (right next to the county building). I got out of the car, grabbed my school bag and my sweatshirt and headed to the school. I was looking down to tie the sweatshirt around my waist and ... BOOM... I hit the sign. THe assumption is that I hit my lower lip and as I was pulled down from my momentum that it slid up into my mouth and into my gums... ARG!!!! It hurt alot. I heading into WWTC and went to the bathroom to assess the damange. Thankfully I didn't do anything much to my teeth. I was still able to give my speech afterwards, so I got lucky that it wasn't any worse. And that was my quick little story about my fight with my arch nemesis, the sign!

Another 'lovely' day! Came home from delivery last night and hopped on the computer at around 10. I think it was about 11:30 when Dan called to say that he was going to go get some subs and it would be at 1/2 price and asked if we wanted some. So we all ordered a sub and he & wife stopeed over. We all had our subs, I showed Dan C&C TS and Widgets. He left around 1-ish. Shortly afterwards I headed to bed. I had a hard time falling asleep. It wasn't till after 3-3:30 when I finally fell of to sleep. Work this morning wasn't too bad, was a little late thou. I hooked up cable to the backroom tonight. And I have to start trying to finish my speech for tomorrow. I had best get to work.