Well, life's got me down a bit right now. Been having some issues at home and I really don't know how to deal with them. I wish I could maybe talk with someone to help me out but there is no one that I really trust to talk with. And there are many people that I don't want in this conversation. If they heard anything about it, all they would do is try to take over the situation, try to correct it themselves. They wouldn't shut up how to deal with it and basicly none of it would of any help.

There are always 2 sides of every story. That fact causes a lot of problems for many people. Many of us fail to fully understand and to know about the other side of the story. For the last few years, I feel that I have been simply rolling along in neutral. Not having it in drive to go forwards, just simply letting gravity pull me down the hill. Then all of a sudden the car hit a big stone in the road and everything came to a screeching halt. I've been living the last few years simply week by week. Just looking at getting past the week.

Now that I've hit that big stone in the road, I don't know what to do now. I wish I had some friends to talk to but I don't. I've put too much energy into trying to keep friends and finding friends. I'm just too tired to go out of my way for people and none of them doing it for me. No one calls me up to say are you doing anything, want to go do this? Apac Man does try to make a little bit of time for me but that's it. Nobody seems to really care about me. No one really willing to talk with me or spent time with me.

Sometimes I just start to wonder why I bother with life? Marvin is my hero!