So, Timmy & Andrea, how are you both? I'm doing pretty good. Where to start.... It seems funny to read thru your entry Timmy. So what all have I said that I am to be forgiven for? I did say some mean things on or around 3-21-04 but I'm not asking to be forgiven. Even if I did I'm sure that I would not receive it. I have had many mean things said about me and yet I can move on. We have tried to help and we tend to get the door slammed in our face. Beth & I are not ones to quit on something we believe in, and we believe in Andrea. So, how have I been abusive to my friends and take advantage of them? How have I taken advantage of you, Timmy, or of Andrea? I have not! "We hang out with James because we know he'll play video games." How am I taking advantage of James if he is equally getting the same advantage of having someone to play video games with? Mutual gain! Maybe it it's like you, Timmy, still hanging out with Pauly D. or am I mistaken? (Andrea dislikes us hanging out with James, and she dislikes Timmy hanging out with Pauly D. But is it ok for Timmy to see Pauly and not ok for us to see James? It's not like James would be around if we where to see you, Andrea. We would make sure of it.) Friends tend to both have personal gains from a friendship. A lot like in Sims. Both benefit or they both don't. We have never abused our friends; they have simply bettered themselves and have moved to have better jobs then you will ever have, Timmy. They still come back to visit me. I just can't visit them as much any more! We tried to help Andrea out with the drugs. You refused to help her then! And yet, if Beth & I were willing to help in any way possible, how would we be taking advantage of her? She had nothing to give and we could give her everything we had. How have we lied to her or you, Timmy? If you can point out all my lies, if any, I would love to hear them. I don't lie. I firmly believe in telling the truth to people. I can only hurt myself if I were to lie to people, so I choose to not lie to people. And I can only hope to receive the same respect of the truth from others.

What I want ... is for Andrea to be happy. If you feel that for that to be is to never say "hi" to me, so be it. I will still always say "hi". I can see that you, Timmy, do not want to be in close proximity to me. Are you afraid of me? Because that is what it sounds like. That you have something to be afraid of. I know you will deny any possibility of being afraid of me, but I feel it. And I'm sure you don't want Andrea to talk with us or to see us in public. You can both avoid me if you feel the need to, for I will not. Just because you work for Walmart has not stopped me from going. I don't feel a need to avoid people. Why should I? Have I truly done wrong to you or Andrea? You both say so, but truthfully I have not. Just think for one moment, what truly have I done wrong to you, Andrea? Is caring about you wrong? Is wanting you to stop hurting yourself wrong? Is wanting you to better yourself wrong? And am I wrong in thinking that doing drugs is wrong? Where have I truly gone wrong? If I have done wrong, why are you the ones running to avoid me and hide from me? Shouldn't I be the one running??? But if you truly feel that you can only be happy if I stop caring about you, you can just start thinking that I do not care. In my heart I always will........

I am not asking for much,
just to see you happy.
In the past I have been lied to,
but I know that I haven't been lied to as of recent.
Hasn't everyone shed their tears
thru all these years?
Why is a head hung low and shy?
When I hear that it should be high!
Why cower at my feet?
Do you fear me when we meet?
What is it that you want at last?
For I can't take back the past.
If you want for us to fall off of this earth, so be it.
We'll still be here willing to help you.
I am not asking for much,
just to see you happy.
- GBD