I remember the 3-20 & 3-21 very well. I was very angry that night. And now with more knowledge about that time, really only makes me more angry. I've been trying to keep my anger out of everything. But that is the reason of this page, trying to get other people to understand the way I feel and they have yet to understand anything! I do realize that those mentioned don't have anything against me, but you have not taken into account one person. ME! Your parent admitted to the fact that she had told us to stay out of your family to protect you! I can't say that made me feel very good when the family that I called my second family kicked me out. I have only been back a few times since then and I can't say that I feel very welcome to go there. So, we're both equally tearing the bridge down. You say that I was your friend but the only time we had a nice long talk was that one night. Never before have you talked with me like that and never asked to do it after it. I told my wife all about it and then you where upset with me. I sensed something that night, which you half deny.

As for being honest... When we where coming home on the 20th, you never mentioned that you where dating Tim, which date is supposedly the 18th. On the trip home, you only said that you did not know what you wanted at the time. And as the outcome of the yelling, was you & James breaking up on that trip home. But U & Tim say it was the 18th??? Logic would say that you would have broken up with James on or before the 18th then! I don't want to mention James B-Day present. Also, if you where dating Tim at the time, why did you allow James to be all over you at the hotel? Why did you need to hide talking to Tim on that trip? You said it was so that we would not get upset with you. We were all doing just fine up until the rides. Then you seemed to need to look at your phone more & more often until you no longer seemed to put it down. And the more you kept looking at the phone, the more we knew something was up. Are you so incapable of going a whole day away from someone and to spend time with the one's you are with? It was only one day for crying out loud!

Was there no deception going on? I wasn't in your shoes, but I think I can see them pretty well from where I am standing! So I don't know anything about you... Should I mention anything about when you started to wear sweat pants to bed instead of wearing long shirts to bed? I'm sure you would doubt my ability to understand your relationship with Larry.

What was the other side of the situation? I would love to hear all about it. What don't I know or understand? Do I have any of my facts incorrect? I'd appreciate any corrections. I try not to be incorrect with my facts. The last time I was wrong was because I was only hearing lying Paul's side. Not that you where likely to tell me what you where doing or feeling at that time. I must only know James' side? Has James been lying to me? Will you tell me your side of it? What more is there that I don't know? You say there is more, so what am I missing?

It seems so odd that all I do is point out one thing and everyone gets upset at me. I could be much more evil about things with what I know. I haven't said many nice things but I don't think I've said any bad things. I have not been name calling or saying much behind people's backs. I really don't try to talk about it anymore. I've said my gripes and they have gotten no response. With the way everyone has been towards us, it makes it hard for me to want to spend any time with Chad. I know that things are not his fault, but seeing him puts me closer to where I'm trying to distance myself from. I was thrown out, so 'I'm moving out.'

I'm not saying that the overall choice was a bad one. I'm saying that it could have been done in a much better way than to hide in the bushes. You had the choice about how it was handled and I think that it was a poor one. The K's burned their side of the bridge and I'm tired of putting water on the fire.

Well, we got to spend some time with Jon last night. We went out for food and then came back to the house for an evening of gamecube. We had fun. Mickey asked to come down to Chapter II to see him. So after we dropped Jon off at home, we went down to the bar for about an hour and listened to Mickey talk all about his ex. Most of the time I just sat around and watched the drunks because I couldn't hear Micky over all the music. We where planning to drive up and see Chris today but when we didn't get to sleep until about 4am and then not wake up until 12. It didn't leave a lot of time to go and visit with Chris. Maybe we'll drive up there tomorrow to go visit him.

AirFest was good. Got a bit burned even thou we were under a tent! Then in the evening, we went to see Garfield with James. Great movie. Afterwards, we went and bought about $60 in DVDs. We watched The Last Unicorn and James fell asleep half way through and had a Domino's Pizza. Had a blast. I hope James can come over another night to watch more videos. I still have to have him watch Firefly! It's fun to get others hooked on it. It was a great series. Can't wait for the movie. :-p (For those who didn't know it is being made into a movie. Not sure of the date yet.)

Well, it's always interesting to see what people have to write. I have a hard time thinking that we might be parasites filled with empty lies. I truly don't think that I or my wife are stupid. If it is not meant for us, then who? If we hurt people so much, why do you still come to visit our pages? I still care. We still care. I don't know fully why, but we do. That is the reason we are still here. I suspect the same for you. I feel that you think that I have done something wrong to you. What is it? I was told that I was wrong for something for the first time around. What was it? I keep feeling that I have done things wrong but no one has told me what or why. And no one wants to tell me why. Do you understand at all what you have done to me? I doubt it.

I saw Andrea yesterday on our way into LaCrosse. We past her next to the Subway on the north side of LaCrosse. She was busy talking on her cell phone heading towards Onalaska. We where heading down to the movie theatre to go see Harry Potter 3. I thought it was a very good movie. The books are far better but it's hard to stick it all into just 2 hours and 20 minutes. The credits where intereisting. We stayed until they where done trying to find the hidden stuff on the side. See if you can find the lost room. :-)

I had told Beth that after I wrote the last entry that I would get a response. My guess was right. I did get a reply on 5-24. If you know what to write, you can get a response out of people. For the most of it, I had guessed correctly. And there was a thing or two that I don't believe. But, things are now the way they are and the past can't be changed. I can only hope for a better tomorrow. On to better & brighter things...

This weekend was a blast. On Saturday, I went on a canoe trip with Kevin & gang. We went down the Root River. We had canoed it in the fall for the guys canoe trip. There was more water than last year. Last year, we walked about 2/3 of our trip down the Root River. That was because the river was too low. The canoe with 2 people sat on the rocks. The canoe without 2 people floated just fine. So was had walked most of the river. Back to Saturday's trip. The new couple, Robert & his wife, fell over on the first bend. The rest of the trip went well. We did get rained upon during the afternoon. Afterwards, we went to Lanesboro to had supper. I had prime rib. :-) It was good. The following day, was the party at my parents house. You can read about that party on my wife's page.

This week is looking to be a good one. Simply because my brother Jeff is going to be up north for a week of vacation. Yay!!! Then this weekend we'll be going to the AirFest at the LaCrosse Airport. Father-in-law is taking us with him to the show. He is part of the Coulee Classic Cars Club and will be showing off his classic car. We'll ride with him & sit at their booth for the day. We'll have nice front row seats. :-)

Well, hope there is more to come as I move forward in life.