Well, life sucks and then you die. Such dreary weather yesterday & today. It's exactly the same way that I feel. Dreary. Haven't done anything productive this weekend. I should be cleaning and organizing, but I just have not. Sort of a depressed feeling. And a bit of loneliness in there too. Most of our friends have gone and left us. It hurts to think that people who claimed to be our friends have up & left. I need to stop dwelling upon it, but I have nothing else in my life to do. Trying to figure out all the problems in my life that are preventing me from having a happier life. I have tried to make a few good friends at school, but once the semester is over, they just vanish. I try to continue to talk with them afterwards but they just don't seem to want to talk with me anymore. They must have enough friends in their world that they don't need me in there.

For the ones I used to have, I think that they did not like us pointing out their bad choices and trying to help them make better choices. I wish for all of those who I have called friends to achieve self-actualization. To develop to one's fullest potential. To try to better ourselves and to make better educated decisions. But people don't like that. A lot of current situations have been very similar to back when we were on the cb radio. By comparing those situations to the current ones, I think I know how a lot of things will probably turn out.

At the same time, does anything that I put in here matter? Around the time of March 20th I had a lot of hits on this page. Now, it's luck if I get a hit a day. But why even that? I wish I could read thoughts. To know the reasons as to why you have come here. Do you want to be my friend? Do you care about how I feel? Do you want to know more about me? Do you just want to check to make sure that your not getting talked about? Are you just compelled to check my page for no apparent reason? Did you just stumble upon my page, and wanted to know what this page was about? Why are you here? I would love to hear your comments as to why you are here.