I'm not trying to ignore anyone. I was not around. And since then, I have just felt too busy to reply to people. Had class on Thursday. Was out with Jon on Friday for supper. Spend Saturday working on chores around the house. And spent Sunday with family playing settlers & watching firefly.

I gaze into my magic 8 ball and ask "will life go on?" I flip it over and it replies "outlook good." I guess that would be a good thing. I'm just feeling mellowed out. I'm driving in neutral. Thinking about what others think of me. Thinking about what people are wanting; what are they hoping the future brings. Thinking of where things go from here. The past, present, the future. What is the meaning of all of it?

Out past dictates a lot about our future. I have known about how my past has affected mine. I had a fun time Friday night, for the little time that my past was not quite hiding me. I can hope that I overcome my obstacles and have a little more time again. To feel that enjoyment again. Life just does not seem nearly as enjoyable as it once was. I so miss being back in high school.

I think I will put a pause to my writing. I could continue to bore everyone with my petty ramblings, but not right now. I am so amazed at things. I have actually be quizzed about my last entry. Questions. I have so many. I can see all of you that have read my writings. These writings contain the majority of them. Some I have asked multiple times. There is so much that I would like to understand about others but not sure of those who are wanting to understand me. None of you have truly understood how I work or what makes me tick. *screeeech* ok, I'm feeling myself going off on a tangent. Think, think, think. Never mind. I think I will just end here and let people mull things over and they can send me an email if they figure anything out.