Well, it's the new year. The time of reflection over the last year and thought into what I want this new year to bring, It's probably a great time to ask myself 'WHY?' Of all the questions that I have floating thru my mind, they all require 'why?' With just a hint of 'what?' Millions of questions but they never are fully answered. I guess that life would just be so boring if I knew the answers to all of them. When I had gone out for the long car drive with my wife, she helped point out a lot of things that I'm blind to see. We both felt much better after having that long talk and being able to understand each other better. Thru most of this fall, I have been feeling like my energy has just been drained. I could never seem to have enough energy to not feel tired. I think I know where it was coming from and will soon be trying my best to change that part of me.

I have a good question of 'why' to start off this new year: Why are you reading this? It's been a bit interesting looking thru the logs and seeing who all are looking at my web site. I have a few that check my site out like a few times a week, to some that look about 4-5 times a day or more. Do you, as the reader, care about how I feel? Is it that you may think that I am talking about you and you want to make sure that I don't say bad things about you? Or is this your first time to my page and was interested about what I might be like? If it's the last one, the person who I call me is being far misrepresented in these entries. We as humans are so complex that if you truly wanted to know & understand me, you'd have to meet me & talk with me for a while.

One of the things I'm hoping to change this year is that it feels like everyone considers me to be the enemy. I can't understand why I feel that way. What have I done wrong to people? Maybe I should just be blamed for everything. Oh yeah, I already am. I guess I just have to try to find ways to make my life better than it was this last year. Hope you have a better year than I do. :-)